It has been one of those weeks. One of those long weeks where nothing really goes to plan. And I am ex-haus-ted.
Baby L. had been dragging on a cold for over a month and on Monday he had his very first session of kiné respiratoire (breathing physiotherapy). The "magic massage" worked wonders as he was immediately relieved from his congested nose and nasty cough but (and it is a big but) the massage was quite - what I am saying, extremely - vigorous. My friends who have kids told me that it was disturbing to watch but I didn't realise to what extent until I saw it being done. To see my little boy be "hurt" even though in the end it was for his own good, and hearing him cry out to us and not being able to help him was the worst feeling I have experienced so far as a mother.
Work has also be terrible this week, with so many things to do and so little time. Having a baby has strongly impacted on how I organise my day at the office because whatever happens, I now have to leave at 6 pm to pick up my boy. That means no more coffee breaks, hardly ever any lunch breaks (in France, you legally have to take 1 hour) and of course, no more drinks after work to drown my sorrows. Sadly, the whole networking side of my job has become almost non-existent and instead, I am sat at my desk all day long desperately typing away before the ticking time bomb goes off, telling me I have to leave. Of course, when I get home, there's a whole new job waiting for me.
Some days, keeping up with the pace of daily activities is really hard, not to say impossible.Trying to be a good mum, a good girlfriend, a good daughter, a good sister, a good friend, a good professional - at the moment, I can't keep up. I know that that I'm supposed to be a Wonder Trentenaires, that it's the weekend and that I should be happy, but I can't help it: today has been so hard, it's been my very own black Friday.
Anyone got a quick fix?
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Oh man! I am back to work this coming Monday, and I am lucky enough to work at home. Still, I am so worried about balancing being a working woman and a mom. I think you are awesome! I'm sure you do a brilliant job - you just have those days that seem impossible.
ReplyDelete(I'm curious about this magic massage. Jude has been sick for 2 weeks with the same thing... not to say the intensity sounds fun... just curious as to what it is exactly.)
Chin up! Take some time to have that drink you deserve!
It sounds like you need a glass of wine after the kiddo goes to sleep! I always wonder how people with jobs and kids do it. Like you said, taking care of someone else + a home is a job in itself. I hope things start to lighten up!
ReplyDeleteHi lady - don't worry we all have those days where nothing seems to work. What you need is I think some time for yourself, take an hour, go meet up with a friend, take a bath, have some wine, read a magazine or all of the above :)
ReplyDeleteI hope your little guy is feeling better by now, and I can only imagine what it was like for you to witness it all. I almost cried the first time Oscar got his vaccines because he started to cry like crazy...
Being a mum working full time is definitely not easy and I also get frustrated at times when I feel like my best to make everything works isn't enough.
But again don't worry, I'm sure you'll feel better tomorrow. You deserve a little break :)
Bisous xx
a long hot bubble bath!! find some time to yourself this weekend, sound like you need it. maybe during nap time for baby?
ReplyDeleteAND if finally snowed this week, can you believe it!?
stay warm and know that when things get tough all those people you're trying to be 'good' for are also your support system!
Ouais... c'est pas très gai et malheureusement ton sentiment est partagé par beaucoup de jeunes mamans. ce que tu racontes me fait penser à une discussion que j'ai eu avec une copine la semaine dernière qui me disait: je n'y arrive pas, c'est trop dur c'est trop chiant, je ne vois pas ma fille, je ne veux plus vivre comme ça, j'aspire à mieux.
ReplyDeletePas facile hein.
La condition des femmes a des progrès à faire. Vive les crèches d'entreprises, les horaires aménagés, vive la campagne, les boulots en tant qu'indépendantes, les hommes qui font les courses le ménage, la bouffe...
Bon courage ma jolie.
i understand 100% and i am cheering you on from here in the states! we should consider a care package exchange for working moms who miss our after-work happy hours (i REALLY miss mine)...there are a lot of us out there.
ReplyDeleteSweetie, Im so sorry! We all have those days, weeks...Its just impossible to do everything as there is so much to do and so little time...Im often over my hear with it all and I dont have childen yet. So I can only image how hard it must be when you also have children to care for but you know what? We dont have to be perfect. Sometimes just say...I need an hour to relax and have a bubble bath or glass of wine...Sending you hugs:)
ReplyDeleteKisses, my dear
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ReplyDeleteFirstly, that photo of the little person is adorable!
ReplyDeleteSecondly, I feel for you! Buy yourself some flowers and chocolates and have a bubble bath. Your gorgeous little man wil be all grown up before you know it and independant, and maybe you'll even wish for these days back again. (At least that what I tell myself on the really tough days.)
x.c
oh, i so feel like i can relate to this post. never enough time in the day to be all that we want to both others and ourselves. keeping and reading blogs at night is my only escape it seems...with a cup of tea. xoxo
ReplyDeletei'm so glad you wrote this. i am feeling the EXACT same way today. being a mama is so hard!!! wish i could beam myself through the internet to give you a hug. hope you're feeling better today, now that a few days have passed, and that your little sweetie is doing better, too. lots of love xoxoxo
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel. Some days really are black. When my son was about 4 I started giving him a natural product called RespirActin (www.respiractin.com) and I swear by it. I give him 1 tbsp every morning and he NEVER has a cold or cough. It's made here in Canada, but I'm sure that they ship worldwide. Now I never worry about colds and respiratory problems. Not sure if your baby is old enough to take it, but I'm sure that you can find out on their website.
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